Desabafo

I blame myself, I tear, I hurt. Mug me, I don't pardon. I'm just lying all day, thinking about the lies ... How it might be and how it could be. I repent. Deeply massacred and rejected; You appears, fills me with hope and flees gone. Don't ask me to understand, because you put me down. I ran back, I searched to try. I insisted and stopped insisting. And I wished I avoided, animals and environment. I did what you wanted, acted perfectly, you noticed. What's missing? Why not again? Life stupid it takes to heal, strange quirks that can't get; visible problems that never cease to torture me.